There comes a time in all of us seemingly happy go lucky types when we simply can't help but break down due to the pressures in life, a time when all the pain, and all the fury and all the sorrow breaks free from the cage we locked them away in...
Why do we suppress and not pour our feelings you ask? Why not share and be free? Free from the chains that you yourself bring along with you? Well its because... We are the happy go lucky's (or the seeming ones to say the least). We're the one's who lighten the mood when it seems it's dullest, the one's who jump and shout for you and make you laugh and smile and feel that joy that comes with life. We don't care if we're loud or obnoxious or that people hate us coz we're annoying. We are who we are and i'm here to share with you the other side of us that people rarely see... and most times... don't want to see.
We have the ability to cry and weep and frown and be generally sad... same as the rest of you lot. We may put up a good "show" up front in public but if we're having a bad day... it's the corner of the room on the floor for us (literally speaking). Coz most people can't and won't understand what we go through. I used to curl up in bed in tears... it got so bad to one point I was no longer myself... At school... I wasn't happy anymore... i avoided my friends coz i thought i didn't deserve their friendship coz i wasn't their "happy" guy anymore...
Rest assured i changed back to my lil sprite self with a lil help from them. 11years of friendship goes a long way.
Losing a family member, a lover, a friend, or losing your way in life can affect you drastically. Perhaps more than you thought it would. Try having all that was mentioned happen one after the other and you'll know what i mean... the tears will flow and the heart becomes a heavy burden to carry. So the next time that happy go lucky friend of you gives a frown, know that they're going through a tough time. We're not as strong as you think...
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Yes yes. It's a hard time being a happy-go-lucky or most of the time cheerful/positive person when we have our breakdowns. Just when we wanted to avoid/have a break, or make funny faces a bit just to bear our own pain and all, some might think otherwise, sigh. But what I like being who we are is because the tears we make will make us stronger bit by bit without us even realizing! I'm sure you'll have many good ppl beside you to tell u better things than me. ^^ So, believe in them who believe in you (corny Gl line but hey it's good) and re-member that we have to go thru rain in order to see our rainbows! Hang in there and when you despair, I'm sure many people who you least expect will care. Take care! (I'm sorry I'm not that good in words)
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